Woke up.

Got out of bed.

The rest is known to most with half a head.

Me? Well, I still got a roof over my head and a house to hold it up. But that house is costing more each day and it hurts to think of, well, so much stuff.

Why do I never sleep? Why can’t I at least find some peace in sleep?

But there are them that got it worse- some a lot more worse. Than me; than you.

I have changed and I don’t really like where I have gone when I take the time to take note. And this early morning with maybe more rain on the way is one of those times when I take note.

We can’t change too much too quickly and sometimes not much at all. But we can always try to get back to what we once were or redirect toward what we wanted to be, can’t we?

Yes? No? Ah…maybe.

I have lived. But just a life. A normal and, some might say, boring life. But I never tried or meant to hurt anyone and I mostly try to do the best that I can and I mostly try to do the right thing. At least as I define it.

Yes, I did wake up and sometimes that is half the battle.

And, yes, I did get out of bed. And the battle rages on.

But then what?

Move on I guess and get things done. Check them off the list. Oh, wait…I think I need a new list.

Life is a wonderful thing is it not? All the ground that we cover; all the years and the places and the faces and the memories that grow, linger, and then fade…all for some purpose perhaps or maybe toward no end at all. Linger and drift and fade away.

Sigh.

Too early and not enough sleep. Health is important if you plan to stay healthy. Mine needs improvement.

How did so much get by so quickly? My kids are not really kids anymore and all those things I put off doing with them when they were 4 or 6 or 8 or 10 just can’t be done anymore. Not now, not for some time now. Why did I let the time slide by?

Yeah, there is no time like the present.

I want to get things right before I die. I’m not sure what that exactly means but I really need to start figuring it out. Better than I have been lately; better than I ever have before.

There is no time like the present unless you live in the past or are always looking for the future, waiting for a better tomorrow that may never come.

And nothing ever a given man.

One day you will not wake up and you will not get out of bed. Just get put in the ground and all you did and left behind from that moment on will linger and drift and then fade away.

So make it the present. Make it now. Make it today. I need to change and I need to start here and now.

Cuz the me that I see is not the me I wanted to be.

This guy? No way. He just ain’t me.