Sometimes you feel like nothing ever changes and at other times you realize how little remains the same. Things change even when they don’t; it just might be too subtle or simple for you and me to see or notice.

We wind now into the final month of this, another year. When I look back nothing much seems different from last December yet I know that we, all of us, have covered a lot more ground than we realize. I’m not sure if that’s good or not but I do know it’s true. And is life simply just a matter of moving forward and never going back?

Ah, heck, I dunno. It’s early again and I couldn’t sleep again so I fired up the computer to write here, again. Not as prolific as a year ago when I was writing daily but I still try to get something said with the voice that remains to me.

It’s Friday and the kids and the wife have half-days. They plan to go out shopping together in the afternoon while I continue on the home project from hell. I need to be doing something with my life. For too long idle and for too long indecisive. I think that will be changing.

Christmas is coming on fast and I am more in the spirit this year than usual. I hope that can continue because it is a good feeling and I really could use some good feelings.

I ain’t complaining. I just wish I could sleep better and feel a little better in the process.

Soon, the boys will be up and getting ready for another day at school. They move on after this year to high school. So cliché but so true to state how fast it has indeed gone by. If we could live our lives all over again would we choose to do so?

If we could change something in our past what would it be? If we could do something different what would it have been? If we could change one thing about ourselves what would that be?

I wonder if such questions and their answers have any real purpose. Do they help? Probably not.

Not too cold today. Maybe a better winter than last year. Maybe better things ahead for me, or us, or at least some of us. What would I have tomorrow bring if I could place that order?

Tomorrow is another day if it is not the one we have today and not the one we knew yesterday. It is early and tomorrow has become today. There is always hope and there is always a chance to change things or even keep them the same if you like the way things are.

I like options and I like change. I also like consistency and the comfort that the old comfy flannel brings. There is something warm and soothing in the things we know and love.

For now, this day, this early morning, I look to my future and I vow to make the changes and do the things I know that I need to do. But I also hope that this weekend I can spend some time basking in the light of the things that I know, with the people that I love and cherish, and hope and pray that we all come out okay in the end.

Life is scary sometimes and what comes next may not be known but it does not have to be feared. Not yet.