I remain focused upon my resolve.

I have succeeded and I have failed. Certainly on the same day and even in the same hour. A few times in the same situation. But I remain resolved.

So much of how we react to things depends upon how we feel and how we approach every moment. I have to continue to try to get better sleep and also to get back to my workouts. When you feel better everything is easier to handle. Start by feeling better about yourself and you might be surprised how that carries over to how you deal with other people and situations. The reverse is also true so don’t go there!

Has my patience eroded with age?

Have I forgotten what it is like to be a teen-ager?

Did I have less “in my way” as a teen because my mom had passed away and my dad was at work a lot or certainly not deeply into “my stuff”? Perhaps. Well, yea.

I am not dead. I am not planning on getting there anytime soon though one never knows. I am learning to get more done in less time and once again to better manage my time. Each day offers us another chance to do something we need to do, want to do, or simply love to do.

I love my kids and I love my wife and I love our life though I know there are things that need to be changed or that can be improved. This is usually the case with any family isn’t it? So we just need to do what we can in that regard. Accentuate the positive and work to eliminate the negative.

“Resolution of happiness….Execution of bitterness…”

I want to do something radically different with my life (career) and while I have started in that direction by doing things like this endlessly unread blog I am stuck in between neutral and first gear though now finally heading in a better direction I believe. Just not able to get up to speed quite yet.

As with all things so with time will goodness come. I await it eagerly and know this to be true for if it isn’t then the alternative is hardly worth considering, is it?

I remain focused on my resolve and committed to pursuing my dreams after too many years of putting them aside. I know mostly what I want after now so many years spent spinning in some ways.

I remain fully committed to my family and devoted to doing what I can to help my country in what I consider to be one of her greatest times of need. The former is easy, the latter not quite so.

I welcome the blanket of peace and calm as it falls all about me. So much can it help me to cast off doubt and all things bad.

I welcome the aid of the divine in all endeavors but mostly in my efforts with my family. Effort does not seem quite the appropriate word there but I have no better one just now.

For in the end, when my time has come, what will be more important than that? What better way to try to leave a part of me, a part of the good part of me, to my children and any and all who may come after?

With God’s blessing I will not fail. I remain re-resolved in these things, this day and all days’ future.