Well, things got better and then they didn’t.

Have you ever wondered how much of what happens in life is because of you? Have you ever considered how things might change if only you had the courage to change first?

Do you have that courage?

And, more importantly to me, do I?

As a leader of my family I know that I continue to fall down. I do manage to get up again and again but I hurt from all of the fallings and failings. I need strength, I need courage. I need to do things differently. I need a new mindset.

Today is Monday and we have started this new month of June. It is a new week and a new month and I would like to greet it with a new me. A me dedicated first to family and then to self. I have always had that dedication I think in the correct order but there has been something missing. Perhaps it is patience; perhaps it is the right understanding. Maybe it is the inability to listen properly; maybe it is the inability to express, by word or example, the proper message, consistently.

I know several things that will help me right off but I will not share right here, right now. I just continue to pray that I can have the strength to get to where I want to go. Get happier on the way there and be very happy when I get there. I will benefit of course but, most importantly, so will my family.

There is not much more I want to say here and now. I just need to get going today, this new week, this new month and this new me. A better me, a happier me, a me that I can live the rest of my life around and not be ashamed or filled with too much regret.

I’ll let you know how it’s going. Daily I hope…