Been a few more days. Okay, it’s been a couple. With everything that’s been going on it is getting harder to make daily entries here. I will try to do better in the future!

I’m reading a good book on baseball by George Will.

I’m also reading a good book on WW2- I think its title is “Citizens of London” and is written by…um…some woman. Why can’t I remember these things?

I dunno. It is a rather somber day and I’m waiting to go to a musical concert at my kids’ school. Did I mention that one plays the sax (alto, tenor and now mostly bari) as well as the electric bass and the other plays the drums (percussionist as they refer to them) and also the acoustic and lead guitar?

Well, they do. They like playing music and they are pretty darn good. I am impressed and hope that they stick to it for, well, forever.

But I don’t have much to say tonight. I too am somber like the day. I see that a good bit of what my kids are doing now, the things they like and are pursuing, will likely not be the same things they like and pursue a few years down the road. In some ways for that I am sad, I am somber, and I remain silent except for the little I say here.

The baseball season isn’t exactly going as we had hoped though there is good in it. It is going like I feared it might but I just hope my kids keep up enough interest and a high enough level of passion to keep playing. I wish they were bigger kids and for that I blame their parents. But, in all, I just remain somber and wish that I could remain silent. Actually, mostly I do.

I wish my kids’ school was better. It isn’t bad but still I worry that they are being persuaded toward a more liberal and progressive side of thinking on a daily basis. They are smart and often call out the efforts made to change them. But how long will they be able to hold out? That is why we will most likely send them to a private school. Next year will be their final one at this school and while I am not crazy about the school and some of the people it has been okay these past three years and I will be somewhat sad to see it, and some of their friends, fade away into the past next year. That is a somber and sobering thought and that makes me sad and keeps me silent. I just think and I just sigh.

I worry so much about this country. What I see scares me and it is sad to see so few willing to do something about any of this. Why do they remain so silent?

I worry about my own future in addition to that of my children. They are growing up; I am just growing old and sometimes too sad and too damn somber. And I remain too damn silent and have been that way for too damn long.

These waves of silence are hard to avoid and tough to get over but still they rush on and pound me every waking day.

Will I be able to overcome all of this and speak my mind?

I dunno for sure.   I ask the question but no response is offered.

Only simple, sad, and somber silence…      once again.